DVNT Confessions

August 27, 2010

we all are narcissists

Filed under: journal,randomStuff,social — Tags: — ecko @ 12:12 pm

I know it was hard for me to think about it too. But really look at your self, there is some part that has a feeling of wanting to be the center of something. even if it is just taking the time of one person and wanting to be the center of their world.
But we call that alone time?
I know, but you are still wanting that attention. I dont see this as a bad thing do you? we all need that time with that special someone, but we are still wanting their attention undivided.

Now I as a blogger need to admit I am more of a narcissists than you. I publish as a writer to be read so that makes me an even bigger narcissists. But I think I can also use this bit of vanity to a better advantage. I can point to something bigger than me and you.

I can work out my thoughts on life and work my way through parts of scripture. I can work out things that bother me and trouble my thoughts. If I lose some maybe I will gain others, and together we can share life.
This is a journal of a journey through my life not always daily but definitely mentally.  I hope you take this journey with me as I grow.

so how do you view your self?

August 23, 2010

Way of Instruction

Filed under: journal — Tags: , — ecko @ 1:05 pm

Yesterday(19 Aug 2010) I was reading proverbs during my quiet time, And if you read a proverb a day you can tell I was in the 19th chapter. I have read this chapter a few times over in past months and during the day. the 27th verse stuck out to me more than most this time.

27 Stop listening to instruction, my son, and you will stray from the words of knowledge.

This hit me in the chest. Hard.

Hind sight being 20/20 I know I strayed. Far.

The words of Job ring in my head of “Will not even God use the aching of your bones to correct you”.

Before all the aching and pain and coming back to the Lord, I experienced a little bit of the world.  Sex, Drugs, and the like were what I was about. This led to a marriage and subsequent divorce, that I can say I learned a lot about how not to do things. from all this though I learned and gained some worldly wisdom that as I have rediscovered Godly wisdom I see the black and white that much more defined.

So my take on this is that the words of instruction are really supposed to be Gods words. The less they are read and shared with your children the easier it will be for them to wonder off. I know I have been there.

I grew up most of my life in a non-christian home. my mom was professed christian and at that time did not live it. so when i started wanting to practice the Wicca, she freaked. But her freaking was the first step I took to the Lord. This in and of itself is just the start. but not having more than a short time of interaction with christian males and not having a father at home. this shaped how I developed. Not really always getting in the Word also was an issue. So when I left the nest for the first time I failed.

Again in retrospect I could see this coming.

I became a little bit co-dependent at that time. and based on that co-dependency I had a very flawed and failed relationship with my now ex-wife. when she told me marry her or let her go, I should have opened the door and kicked her out. she was never good for me. I had a few people in my life tell me, but ultimately it was a mistake I had to make myself.

so in all that depression what am i trying to say.

The bible is packed with great instruction, Read it and find out for yourself

August 15, 2010

What I Listen to for Inspiration

Filed under: randomStuff,social — Tags: , , — ecko @ 8:50 pm

maybe a better title for this post would be what I listen to for motivation. with writing as any adventure in life it is about the right motivation as well as soundtrack. you have to have something that puts you in a mood as well as makes you want to carry on and do something.

so here is a list of things past and current that I listen to for motivation or inspiration

Ben Sage – How the days collide
DJ SpyHunter – Till Daybreak & Powder Breaks (both are great for what they are)
Stateside Collective/ Bamboo/ Force Recordings – Collective Intelligence Vol.1 (my first jungle CD – and still one of the best)

Along with those I find I like a lot of down tempo chill music. I use all these in my writing and to just sit back and relax to. But there are those times when I need to change my mood / mode and I need something different, for that there is

Matt & Kim, Linkin Park, and other poppy, Indy kinds of things.

Last but not least is the music I listen to when im working out and needing to get pumped. here I listen to things like Dropkick Murphys, or Flogging Molly, Project86, and generally the hard side of things. this really does get the blood flowing and the heart racing to make a great work-out.

As you can see my musical taste is just about all over the map. and this is still not all I listen too. I also like trip-hop and old school hip-hop, acid jazz, etc.

So do you listen to for inspiration as well as motivation when you need to get some form of work done?

August 12, 2010

Ideas Floating in My Head

Filed under: journal,randomStuff,social — Tags: , , , , , — ecko @ 1:41 pm

Why is this my personal writing space?

I have all these Ideas floating in my head all the time, and so many times I just do not act on them. Well I can not stand that any more, my ideas need to be freed upon the internet and allowed to grow and change. as well as influence others, thoughts and actions.

What is the point of having ideas to paint, cook, write, produce videos, etc. if A) I don’t do them and B) I don’t share them. so That is why a lot of my Ideas will be posted here. and if you see an idea that I am not acting on or you want to help with let me know.

I want to see your ideas as well. I want to see what you are passionate about in your own life. what things make you tick, or cause your aha moments. Share in the comments or on your own blog. Maybe your a maker or crafter, or you want to be. Go for it.

So just a little random thought and encouragement on a Thursday Afternoon.

peace and love all

Ecko

August 9, 2010

A Big Step

Filed under: Travel,journal,social,vLog — ecko @ 5:30 am

There are many people in my life that know how psoriasis affects me. A sub-set of those know my thoughts on helping others with the same condition. So I took a huge step for me, I signed up for a clinical trial.

that is right I signed up to be a human guinea pig.

but let me digress for a moment or two here. For a while I have been trying to find my passion, and I think it has been under my skin the whole time. This is the reason I am writing about this, Advocacy, of my conditions and to help others with this.

I did this not do this for me to test the next round of drugs coming down the pipe, or even to clear my skin up. I am doing this for generations to come, if not for the generation of my children then for their children. my hope in doing this is so children do not have to have the same issues growing up that I did. The depression and scratching are one part, the “is it contagious” question is another. There is also the constant feeling of being pushed away by other children.

So I am going to Orlando on the 26th for the initial interview to start on this test trial. I plan to keep some log of this adventure here as well as my vlogs. the keeping of records is so i can track what is going on and so can you.

So as we embark on this new adventure I open this up for comments, and ask you this. Would you ever sign up for a clinical trial?

August 6, 2010

Hacking Thought

Filed under: journal,randomStuff — Tags: , — ecko @ 9:17 pm

Earlier this week I was reading “The Top Idea in Your Mind“. In this article Paul Graham talks about what you think most about in the  shower is what you tend to drift to when your mind has a free moment. So I want to know can you hack thought?

What, how are you wanting to hack thought?

I am proposing that we can motivate out mind to think on our own terms a little better. That with the right tactics and techniques we could have our mind working for us vs the other way around. let me attempt to explain a little bit more in a different way.

I tend to let my mind drift when in the shower and through out the day.  I feel that maybe if I read or study a problem, then allow that thought to flood my mind in the shower it then becomes my primary thought. beyond this it also allows me to work through it a little differently.

now how can this be of more use to me and maybe even you?

well to answer that I want to make another past thought come to light. I wondered about meditation God’s way, and not not my own way. I think that having a quiet time before a shower where you are asking yourself questions, and thinking about His word will influence your thoughts. those thoughts will help you to meditating in and on Him.

thought case 2, Writing and story lines. there are days that I think about writing a book I already have characters for. It seems that in the shower is where they wish to chatter the most. through out the rest of the day they have other conversations, and sometimes adventures.

So this is my theory and what I plan on testing in my life. I will keep you posted on how this works for me.

what are your thoughts on this?

August 4, 2010

Free-writing vs posting

Filed under: journal — Tags: , , — ecko @ 12:17 pm

there are times that I wonder what I am doing as a writer, vlogger, and such. and I think that what I have realized this is coming to is that if I want to be more successful than what I see now I am going to have to work at it a little more.  I will have to hone my crafts and do where I haven’t done before.

This is also to apply to procrastination as well as better ways to wast time.

What does this all mean, it means I am stepping up my game. I am stepping up how I do my business. instead of slacking off so much I am going to do. not say I’m going to do as much.

Vlogs are coming to have a purpose and are getting there own site

my main business with DVNT tech will have its own site as a contact funnel.

and this site is still going to be my personal home for writing these random thoughts.

OK, but what is up with the name of this post?

well it was titled because I always wonder should I free write before writing a blog post or not. some days my blog post is my free writing (like today).  then other days I have written the same thing in my head about 30+ times and the words come a little more naturally to me then.

So what is up with all that stuff at the top.

I am writing down goals and tasks that I need to accomplish, as well as warming up for all the other writing I need to accomplish. so as I feel this posting coming to an end and others floating around I bid you adieu.

but what is even worse is when you write and then let it sit for a few days to marinate and let other ideas grow as well. then come back edit and post. that is what I am learning to do. is write 1-3 post a day and tweak on them as I draft others and post when needed.

August 3, 2010

Site issues – Comments fixed

Filed under: from the top,social — Tags: , — ecko @ 12:13 pm

So if you have visited the site and realized you could not comment, well it is fixed now. inelegant by a theme change. well this is good and bad as I have wanted a change around here. just did not want to change in this way.
I am ok with this as for the fact I was wanting to bring a more cohesive look and feel to my little network of sites. so now while you get to look at this site with this off theme and think what is he going to do.

fear not for I will tell you. I plan on having this site, twitter, youtube, and another site all looking about the same color, and background wise. this is how the big boys do it I am going to do it this way as well.
so in the coming time you may see little tweaks here and there untill the release of the new themes.

so that is the quick update from this end

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