Today’s Confession
Yesterday I had made the Claim I am attempting to quit smoking. in the stretch of the last 2 week’s I have drastically cut back on the number of cigarettes I smoke from 15-20 a day ( yes that is close to if not a pack a day) to around 5. I have done this primarily cold turkey, and in the coming week ahead im aiming to get this number to zero. Like I said I write this here to be accountable.
Aside from that the post I was going to craft for today just did not seem to be the right one. instead I would like to share a thought or two from my morning reading of the bible. over the last week I had been reading Proverbs, but today I started into Ecclesiastes. and the thought comes from the last verse (18) of chapter 1.
Ecclesiastes 1:18 (NIV) For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief.
The entire chapter talks about how meaningless striving for the things of the world are, but this verse stuck out the most to me. I feel an ownership for this passage. as I have mused about it, it has reminded me of the last few years of my life and the knowledge and wisdom I have learned. I relate this to the years prior to dating my ex-wife and on through marriage and divorce. every step of the way I was learning something, and the more I learned the more grief I had. All this also caused me to become calloused and apathetic. The apathy grew until most things in life, love, hate, fear, etc., just did not bother me any more. Which this brings me to the next verse that came to me today.
Ezekiel 36:26-27 (NIV)26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. 27 And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws.
I have been praying that God will remove the callous from my heart and cure my Apathy. Praise be to him that I know he will, the moment I read this verse this morning I cried. I prayed, I praised, and I cried, and after that I called others I knew and shared what God had showed me.
So here is the point where in most blog posts there would be some sort of call to action. be it a comment below, or donate blah blah blah. I will be no different other than to say search your self and your heart for God .
Pax Yahweh
Ecko