DVNT Confessions

May 19, 2010

Hope, hope is a beautiful thing when allowed to live in moderation.

Filed under: journal,social — ecko @ 4:24 pm

There are days in my life where I feel like a King with no crown, & no subjects. Sitting by my self in the throne all alone in this huge world, Ego-ed in what I can do. Most days I am humbled by what there is I still need to do, and learn to make my life better.

Constantly trying to move forward in this journey, and not slack-off , striving to make this (what ever this is) work. trying not to reinvent myself but better who I am, and help other people while doing it. This is what I am wanting to be about.

The question I always ask myself is “What do I want to do the rest of my existence?” Here as of late I have made actions to get back to my writing, and my art. hoping that one will bring some epiphany of what I want to do the rest of my life. Thinking that maybe then I will find my passion, and my purpose.From this I will push forward to know more and do better.

Most of all I write to find my soul in this outer shell. I paint, color, and sketch to understand my world better. Doing both of these things to communicate the constant living in some form of pain or another. maybe that is just the first clue to where i am going.

April 29, 2010

vLog365 Day18

Filed under: vLog — ecko @ 6:06 am

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April 28, 2010

vLog365 day16-17

Filed under: vLog — ecko @ 6:58 am

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April 26, 2010

vLog365 Day14

Filed under: vLog — ecko @ 6:19 am

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April 24, 2010

Goals for my 27th year

Filed under: journal,tech — ecko @ 10:04 am

Everyone makes a goal or resolution for there birthday, but it was not till after mine that I really decided it was time to set a few in my own life. I state these here so that I feel I have a little more accountability. a few of my Goals I have already started on the road to getting them done.

  • read the entire bible in 1 year
  • Pay-off my Line of credit
  • vlog 365 days in-a-row
  • Learning PHP
  • writing my first twitter app
  • turning an old laptop into a digi-frame
  • lose 40 lb.s
  • cessation of smoking

They are not many and some rely on other things to be complete first but I think this will be a great year and I have a lot of high hopes. This space on the web is where I will keep track of my progress on some of these, others may be documented else where.

peace

ecko

vLog365 Day13

Filed under: vLog — ecko @ 5:28 am

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April 22, 2010

vLog365 day12

Filed under: vLog — ecko @ 8:06 pm

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April 21, 2010

First thought Koinonia – vLog365 Day11

Filed under: Uncategorized — ecko @ 8:17 pm

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No Regrets No Worries

Filed under: journal — Tags: — ecko @ 1:30 pm

I originally wrote this about 2 years ago and posted it i have sense taken it down, but to day I am re-posting it. even at a different time in my life then when I wrote this, I still feel it applies. I still have no regrets in what I have or will do in this life, and there is no need to worry. more after the poem…

I saw your face for the first time in over a month today. I feared for you that only lasted about 2 minutes. No Regrets No Worries

I am happy now, happier than I ever was. No longer on the anti-depressants and I have Friends and Family that you could never comprehend. I live with No Regrets No Worries

The Passion, Fire, love, and lust, all belong to me. You will never know what drives my inner soul. No Regrets No Worries

You have once taken my soul and I gave it willingly. now that soul has returned unto me, and it is mine to give to whom I choose, and for this live better No Regrets No Worries

I originally wrote this after I saw my now ex-wife we were separated at the time and she was in a transitional period. I find this poem fitting as it is the eve of our 1 year anniversary of divorce.  the reference to my soul can better be interpreted my heart. I was in a very different part of my soul journey trying to figure things out. but as you may now know I have re-dedicated my life to Christ and his will. Ergo I really enjoy doing the work he has set out for me to do.

I choose to say that I have no regrets because every decision we make we shape our future and learn different things. think of a choose your own adventure book here, choose what to do and go. You can not always go back and choose a different path you have to continue on the path you have chosen.  But a path can wind back and forth and some paths cross and others run together for a time. but in the end it is the decisions you make that you can regret, but don’t they help mold who you are.

No worries, this is actually biblical here. Jesus states in Matthew 6:25-34 that worrying is fruitless and does nothing for your life.

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life ? 28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

So what do you think, do I have this all wrong?

ecko

vLog365 day10

Filed under: vLog — ecko @ 6:28 am

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