Yesterday(19 Aug 2010) I was reading proverbs during my quiet time, And if you read a proverb a day you can tell I was in the 19th chapter. I have read this chapter a few times over in past months and during the day. the 27th verse stuck out to me more than most this time.
27 Stop listening to instruction, my son, and you will stray from the words of knowledge.
This hit me in the chest. Hard.
Hind sight being 20/20 I know I strayed. Far.
The words of Job ring in my head of “Will not even God use the aching of your bones to correct you”.
Before all the aching and pain and coming back to the Lord, I experienced a little bit of the world. Sex, Drugs, and the like were what I was about. This led to a marriage and subsequent divorce, that I can say I learned a lot about how not to do things. from all this though I learned and gained some worldly wisdom that as I have rediscovered Godly wisdom I see the black and white that much more defined.
So my take on this is that the words of instruction are really supposed to be Gods words. The less they are read and shared with your children the easier it will be for them to wonder off. I know I have been there.
I grew up most of my life in a non-christian home. my mom was professed christian and at that time did not live it. so when i started wanting to practice the Wicca, she freaked. But her freaking was the first step I took to the Lord. This in and of itself is just the start. but not having more than a short time of interaction with christian males and not having a father at home. this shaped how I developed. Not really always getting in the Word also was an issue. So when I left the nest for the first time I failed.
Again in retrospect I could see this coming.
I became a little bit co-dependent at that time. and based on that co-dependency I had a very flawed and failed relationship with my now ex-wife. when she told me marry her or let her go, I should have opened the door and kicked her out. she was never good for me. I had a few people in my life tell me, but ultimately it was a mistake I had to make myself.
so in all that depression what am i trying to say.
The bible is packed with great instruction, Read it and find out for yourself